baby, i'm bad news.

breathe in.

psychologist appointment today. Sometimes I can’t thank my psychologist enough. I can honestly cry thinking about all the ways he helped me. One thing he talked to me today about is not having a rigid sense of my mind. To stop think that everything is pass fail. He tells me that I’m too hard on myself and it’s really unhealthy for me. It’s hard to accept that and it hard to change your view about things. I am constantly deep in retrospection thinking about my actions, my words and the way my mind works. I always have to think about my situations and my actions and what I mentally tell myself when I’m going through those things. Anxiety is killing me right this very second. I’m a little upset because I know that this is what my psychologist is referring too. Worrying about these things provides no positive return. I just need to think that. By worrying i’m accomplishing nothing. Ergh, I know I shouldn’t even start to cry but I can’t help it. Ugh, these overwelming moments just speak out to me more as to why my psychologist still wants me to go. I can’t freak out with every little occurrence that happens!